Before my Journey there was a lot going on in my life. I was in a friendship that my parents did not agree with and that was hurting me. I also went through a time right before and even up to my Journey where I doubted my salvation. I struggled with doing what my parents wanted. Outwardly I would obey but inside I did not want to do what they were telling me to do. I was also really struggling with was lies and fears in my life!
I tried to solve all of these problems and struggles by just ignoring what was going on and how I was feeling. I was not willing at that time to give everything in my life to God. This ended up making everything harder on me and my family.
When I went on my Journey in June of 2009 God did some amazing things! I remember when we had one of our meetings with Mr. Gothard, he gave us each a sheet of “Lies We Believe.” He told us to check each lie we believed! I checked just a few off so that it would not look empty or look like I thought I was perfect or something. Mr. Gothard had asked me later, “If you could rate your relationship with God from a 1-10 where would you place yourself?” I told him a 3 or a 4.
When we went up to the Northwoods God showed me on the “day of prayer and fasting” that I had a lot more fears and lies than I had marked down. God was telling me that I needed to give everything back to him and surrender. So later on that day after a lot of prayer I gave EVERYTHING to God!
After I gave everything to God and started seeking him with my whole heart, my relationship with Him felt like it had shot up from a 3 or 4 all the way to an 8 or 9! Now that I look back at it I am amazed to see how God changed my life so much in only 10 days!
I also now have an amazing relationship with my Dad and Mom and each of my siblings that I never had before.
“With my whole heart I have sought the: O Let me not wander from thy commandments” (Psalm 119:10).
“And ye shall seek me and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart” (Jeremiah 29: 13)
June 2009 Journey
~ Let me add that while I was on my Journey, thoughts like this would go through my mind: “You’re going to come back from the journey and nothing will have happened.” But God showed himself mighty! The Journey was just the beginning. God has done even more in my life since I came back from the Journey.