This is a testimony that I was blessed to hear. For those who don’t know the stories behind these testimonies, it may not be as spectacular as it is to me, but the work that God did, and the change that He brought was incredible to see first hand!
If some of the wording of this testimony seems unusual it’s because English was the second language on this Journey. This testimony has been edited in order to help with it’s readability, but some of the wording was left in so you can get a feel for how it sounded when it was shared at the Journey.
“I am Nesty, and I am glad to be a part of this group where God has called me. At first maybe some of you were asking yourselves, “Why did God call me on this Journey?” or, “What is something inside of me that needs to surrender to Him?” Ephesians 4:31 says, “Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamor, and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.”
Yes, I came to this place where I am standing having bitterness for all the things that happened to me; having a broken family, having poor health, being maltreated. But God asked me a question that convicted me and totally overwhelmed me. He asked this question; “Nesty, are you going to pursue your bitterness, or follow me? If you are in a broken family do you not think I feel also what you feel?”
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
That He gave His only Son, it means it’s like a father that has lost his son. It proved to me that He had also a kind of broken family like I had.
At first I cried and cried and asked a question, “Why only now do I hear His voice?” “Am I too late to ask His forgiveness?” At that time I pointed out all I had in my heart, doubts with fears, and I had an attitude where I wanted to do everything right, rather than working in the power of the Spirit of God. I was realizing that I was trying to walk in the light of my own intellect which I knew was limited and faulty. So I prayed out loud and asked for forgiveness. I told Him that, “Right now Father I take my intellect off the throne of my heart, in it’s place Lord, I enthrone your infallible Word, and the teaching ministry of your Holy Spirit.” And I told Him, “From now on Father, my step will be directed in your words, and I will follow you, and not pursue my bitterness and my own intellect.”
After praying, God gave me a rhema; 2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature. The old has passed away; behold the new has come.” Immediately such a relief came over me that I wanted to sing and cry all at the same time. The doubts, bitterness, and fear are now gone and I have a growing relationship with God.
One thing I learned in this Journey is; “Obey first His voice, then you will understand all.”