I was saved when I was twelve, but really it was little more than fire insurance. I read my Bible and prayed, but only because I felt like I had to, not because I wanted to get closer to Christ. Because it was not a relationship it just went downhill from there. For about two and a half years I tried my best to live a Christian life. If you had seen me you probably would have thought “Oh, what a nice Christian girl.” I taught Good News Clubs in the Winter, 5-Day Clubs in the Summer, and Sunday school all year long, yet all the while I knew I did not have a relationship. I tried so hard to connect with God but all that seemed to do was make things worse.
Feeling depressed, discouraged, and bitter at God because I was trying so hard and he was not doing anything to help, I was at the end of my rope. One day I heard about this thing called Journey to the Heart. After reading great testimonies about how God had completely changed peoples lives I decided I wanted to go. But at the same time I was really scared. I had heard that you couldn’t just go and expect something great to happen. You had to really seek to find God with your whole heart. So I decided I would give it my best shot, but if this didn’t work then I was done with all the Jesus stuff.
Once we arrived at the Northwoods and started going through our binders, God immediately started convicting me. Everything we talked about was me. I doubted my salvation, I was bitter at 3/4 of the people I knew, I murmured 99.9% of the time, and my heart was stuffed full of pride and lies I believed. Thankfully my wonderful group leaders counseled me through the week staying up very late to talk with me. At the end of the week I was a new person, trusting God for my salvation, letting him deal with the people I was bitter with, and over all amazed with how much he loves me. I am so grateful for this wonderful program, and would just like to thank those who were involved with making it happen.
June 2012 Girls Journey