God touched my life in so many ways on this Journey! At first I did not really want to come; but then the Lord got a hold of my heart. The decision to seek Him with all of my heart on this Journey was one of the best choices that I have ever made in my life!
We started off our time in the Northwoods by studying about a murmuring heart. I would have been the first to tell you that I was a complainer; but I never saw myself as a murmurer! The Lord really convicted me about this and asked me to bless others when I felt like murmuring against them. This was such a freeing thing to do!
For quite a while before the Journey, the Lord had been convicting me in another area—He was asking me to be content in my singleness. However, every time I tried to surrender my desire for marriage to the Lord, the thoughts and feelings would come right back to me.
One day on the Journey we studied the deceitful heart and read about Eve in the Garden of Eden. Even though she had been given everything she needed for her happiness—a perfect husband, beautiful surroundings, plenty of food, and a close relationship with her Creator—still she was not content with what she had been given. Instead, she desired the fruit of the one tree from which she had been forbidden to eat.
The Lord spoke to me through this passage and asked me to be content in Him and pour my whole heart into living my single years for His glory! There were things that I could do for Him during these years that I could never do if I were married. He asked me to make the very most of these years of my life and live them with a passion, realizing that they are quickly passing me by!
I was also challenged that until I was willing to rest completely in the Lord, the longing in my heart would never really be fulfilled.
This time when I surrendered my desires to the Lord, I felt a real sense of His peace. I am happy to say that the longing has not come back! Now I’m at peace.
March 2009 Girls’ Journey